I don’t understand IT, but I think everyone recognizes IT’s
existence. To a certain extent, I feel
like everyone possesses the IT factor. IT
is what helps us to relate to one another and makes Facebook and Google
rich. You can put your friends into
circles, just like you do in real life.
Assuming you have friends to put in circles and that you use the circle
method. I’ve been frustrated lately
because I’m not sure why I don’t have the IT factor, but I’m sure that I don’t
have IT.
Tebow, the quarterback for the Denver Broncos has IT. Scalabrini of the Chicago Bulls has IT. IT is not always based upon something, but
there’s something about IT that appeals to everyone. The most popular guy in school has IT,
usually the gothic person doesn’t have IT, but in today’s society anyone can
find a group to relate to. Even people
that don’t have IT can find other people that don’t have IT and that becomes IT. I even know people that have an abundance of IT.
I think about how 2pac says so many things I can relate to.
“Ain’t nothing worse than this cursed as hopeless life”
“I ain’t got no muthafuckin’ friends”
“Fuck the world”
“It’s just me against the world”
All of these things from one of the most popular hip hop
artist ever. Kids still talk about him
though he’s been dead for over 15 years.
I guess when you’re able to express yourself on a public stage and you
have a voice, those people that are tucked away thinking life sucks have
someone that speaks their pain. I think
about all the people that hated high school or middle school. I never hated any of my experiences. And yet I still find myself sitting here felling
like IT doesn’t matter.
I can’t help but think about how when people ask me about my
siblings and I tell them how many I have; they tell me how big my family
is. I always think, ‘Wow, I do have a
big family…who woulda knew.’ My “friends”
tell me how great of a friend I am, yet we know the same people and I never get
the wedding invitations or the same calls they receive. Quite frankly, I recognize reality. In
reality, many words that people consider descriptive are action words. You can’t be a smart kid and get in trouble
all the time. If you’re in jail, you’re
not a good criminal. If all of your
students fail, you’re not a good teacher.
If you don’t have any friends and no one likes you, you’re not a great
friend. You’re not a great catch if no
one wants to catch you. If you don’t
have time for a person, don’t show them affection and don’t reach out to them,
you don’t love them. I’ve heard all of
the above and honestly it’s a little insulting.
If I were homeless, you would walk up to tell me how rich I am?
So, now I’m thinking about change. The thing about change is that there’s no easy
way to bring about change and change doesn’t always provide the results you
seek. I keep wondering if it’s something
about me that’s I’m just not seeing or understanding, but since I can’t figure
out how or what it is I need to change about myself I feel that I only have one
other choice: I must change those things
around me. I would like to just delete
all of my memories, like a person with amnesia.
But, then I’m always worried about who I should and should not “erase”
and how do you live and enjoy life with no memories? One way or the other, I have to do
something. Like Michael Jackson’s album,
this is IT.
