Psycho

I have always thought that there is something wrong with me.  In many scenarios, I can't comprehend how other people see the situation.  Sometimes it's to the extent that I feel something must be wrong with the way I'm thinking or the way my brain works.  Often times the setting/situation is a social one and the fact that people have told me that I'm a social person makes me even more concerned about my mental health when these scenarios arise.

About a year ago, I told one of my coworkers about the great time that I had when I traveled to Toronto and attended Caribana.  I introduced the idea that we should take a road trip from Chicago out there.  He said he wanted to, but I believe there was a conflict due to the fact that it was short time and I just threw it out there on a whim.  We decided to table the idea and we both threw out the idea of maybe next year.  Today, he approached me with another coworker.  She came to me and said, "We're going to Caribana, you wanna come?"

I was caught a little off guard, but it didn't surprise me that he had discussed the idea with her.  Here comes the strange part in the mind of me.  He said to me, "Yeah I was talking with some of my friends this weekend and me and my crew decided that we're going to take a trip out there."

"HUH?!" (My brain)

So, I have spent too much time thinking about this.  In my mind, the way to approach the situation would have been for him to ask me if I still wanted to take the trip we discussed last year.  However, I find it tremendously awkward & strange that he would tell me that him and his friends decided to go on the trip I originally planned and invited him to.  The presentation made it even stranger to me because it was as if he were presenting me with my own idea.  I would relate it to me walking up to George Washington Carver and saying, "Check out this cool thing I can do with peanuts, wanna taste?"  Two weeks after he showed it to do this cool thing.

I'm almost positive that someone, actually several someones can read this story or be presented with the story and not get where I'm coming from, not even think there was anything strange about my coworkers statements.  However, I can't.

So, here's how this all ties into my title.  I've heard people discussing the crazy actions of psychos in this country who have committed mass murders.  Although I don't agree with their actions, I can in some instances understand how someone can lose control and do something crazy.  However, I can't understand things like the above and many other common social scenarios.  I would hope that this doesn't make me a psycho, but sometimes being unique leaves you feeling unrelatable and isolated.  This is just one of those frequent moments for me.